I Hate Rich Assholes
This project I am working on is seriously pissing me off... Or should I say my state of mind is pissing me off.. Having gone from doing high end theatres to getting stuck on some crappy mobile carrier's storefront designs to getting moved onto a large 400 bucks a square foot condominium project is taxing on the brain.. I am having to think again as opposed to it being instinctual.
On top of all of this is the new person that has entered my life.. My mind is constantly racing with thoughts of her face and the yearning for the two weeks to pass before I get to see her... again after 8+ year of absence from my life when she comes back to Kansas City for the American Turkey weekend (Thanksgiving).
I yearn to hold her in my arms.. to see if the spark that exists non-physically exists physically between us.
Current plan involve me staying in Kansas City for the day as opposed to travelling to extended family get togethers.. this will be the first time I have ever done this... Do Turkey day with friends as opposed to Family. After that, the plan is for her to meet up and go to the Country Club Plaza lighting ceremony and get some drinks afterwards.
After that, I have no clue what is going to happen... I am fighting my gut and my emotions.. not wanting to get wrapped up in some long distance relationship and have my heart broken again... But I am tired of lustful encounters and we have soo many things in common that I think it slightly scares both of us.
Okay... I've vented a bit.. and it's time for me to resume working on this bastardization that is being called architecture.
posted by John at 11/10/2005 03:13:00 PM
3 Comments:
At least you have a job that ain't as shitty as many-many others (though yours also here and there has its downsides)...
my world has a few more downsides than most people know about.. The media has falsely represented my profession as glamourous... It's not all that.. not even close
Long distance sucks... I don't get to see her and see if this spark exists until Turkey Day... Avery who knows... maybe I will run into you and your hunk of a date ;-) If you'd want to meet up for drinks and truly throw the "WTF" factor in there.. let me know.. :-P
The beauty of this whole deal is that she is FROM KC... meaning when she comes up.. she's coming up for me.. but also family... and she hadn't planned on coming up for Christmas and New Years.. but last night she popped up that she was planning on it now.. Whoohoo!! But of course... I still don't know if that spark exists between us in person.
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